Winter Soldier - Hair Face

Happy June


I hope this finds you well and comfortable.

It's summer (hell) here on the Kansas/Missouri border. I am hating every moment of it, but what can you do? Got the a/c running and trying to stay inside as much as possible.

Lisa used her own money and got us a dolly trolley thing off of Amazon. It's been great for going to get groceries once a week. We don't have to call an Uber, so that's saving us money, BUT omg. The first time we went shopping we apparently took the 'this will carry up to 200 lbs' thing seriously. Walking home dragging that thing was INSANE. And painful.

Now we're shopping SMRT and only getting enough for a week at a time. So every Friday or Saturday we're trollying over to Aldi's and getting our food stuffs (and CVS for my wine because OMFG. not doing without that) and walking back. I'm getting my thigh and calf muscles back big time (it's a mile each way) and a tan at the same time. yay?

My job has finally upped our hours, so while still not at 40 hours a week, more is better than less. I'm behind on rent and utilities, but hopefully will be able to start catching up. Apparently we're supposed to start going back into the office twice a week starting July 7th, but my boss is telling me that he's going to ask for me to be able to stay home for a while longer since I don't have a car and going into work is a freaking huge expense that put me in the hole I'm living in now. So there is that.

Also I'm the only person for my company that works 7 days a week, since I do on call emergency stuff from close of business Friday to Monday morning. I get paid a whopping 4 hours for that. Last weekend I put in over 7 hours. So they better make some fucking allowances for me, or someone else is going to be answering those damn calls all day on Saturday.

If you remember, I'm in the travel industry now and it's been a really rough time since March. And with the idiocy of the US gov, it's not getting a lot better. What is really surprising is the amount of people that still want to travel. But then, looking at Florida and South Carolina ... yeah.

So i'm caught in a conundrum. I love my job and absolutely LIVE to send people on vacation. And I love my family and friends and YOU and I don't want the virus to spread anymore than it already has.


is about all I have to say about that.

The Mayor of KCMO is considering making wearing a mask a city wide ordinance and I'm all over that decision. There are so few stores (Costco mainly) in KC that require masks. Where I shop, the local Aldis and Price Chopper, it's totally optional. So no one does it.

I DO. And I will continue. But other people? Not so much.

Also, since it's getting close to the 4th of July, everyone is starting up with parties/fireworks in my neighborhood. My dog is back to having nightly panic attacks, which ramps up my own anxiety about everything. Such fun.

Wow, fun update!

Really, I'm okay. Just venting. Life and all that, right? What else are we gonna do?

Haven't seen my grandbabies since February. I've seen my oldest a couple times as she will pick up pet food for me at Walmart when needed. But I miss my babies. And my grandkids.

Is summer over yet?

Winter Soldier - CAWS

Strange Days

This neighborhood that I live in is so, so so fucking strange. If i can ever figure out how to post pics on lj again, I will have some to share.

Two Saturdays ago, i saw a car parked in front of my house. Nothing completely weird, but a little unusual. I keep an eye on it and notice that it's rocking in place. Now, this is around 11:30 am. Sunny Saturday morning. Other people on the street and outside their homes, etc.

I finally go out on to my front porch and i can full on watch while the chick in the passenger seat is totally blowing the guy in the driver's seat. I take a couple pics with my phone and they finally drive up the street. Not before the woman wipes her mouth and tosses a kleenex out the window. Yeah. Gross.

One Saturday ago, I let Gabriel out to potty around 10:30 at night. There is a random group of guys in front of a house across the street and in the five seconds it takes me to turn away from the door, someone drives down the street shooting from the car. I scream at Gabriel, because of course he is barking at everything and he runs into the house.

The car keeps driving up the street, shots going off all the way up and gone. Gabe is freaked out, i am freaked out. Lisa is freaked out. We all don't get much sleep that night.

Today, Lisa and I walk over to CVS. It's about a mile away and it's sunny and windy. Good day for a walk. (YES we wear our masks inside the store and don't take them off until we get home and carry hand sanitizer to use when we're out and waiting for our Uber ride.)

Past a drunk/druggie that is barely passed out on the sidewalk/street. Past a homeless camp that is set up behind a fence.

But there is a lovely soccer park too, with gorgeous murals and very well kept by the city. As long as you overlook all the broken glass and trash and trash cans that have been broken/burnt/torn apart.

And when we get home, we pass three absolutely gorgeous POC women with the most beautiful traditional brightly colored dresses with matching head wraps and they're smiling and laughing as they walk down the street together.

On a side note, our Uber driver was wearing a mask and tells us that he works full time in a hospital as a social worker and doesn't know ANYONE that is sick and thinks that people are taking this virus scare too far and by the time we got back home both Lisa and I want to dip our bodies in sanitizer and maybe try that injecting thing b/c holy fuck that man WORKS IN A HOSPITAL and is totally unconcerned (other than wearing a mask) about spreading the virus.

I've lived here 5 years come October and i still can't figure this crazy ass place out. I just know i can't afford anything else and i'm lucky that i do have a place for my dogs, my cats, my daughter and myself.
Jason ~ Snow Tattoo

Angsty Drabble and Whining

So, thanks to tabaqui, I have become obsessed with all things Bucky. Winter Soldier. And some, of course, Sebastian Stan spillage. :)

After spending my bday weekend watching and rewatching both Winter Soldier and Civil War, I am drained and broken and totally in luff with Bucky. (although I can't get past that stupid name ...) Bucky? Really, Bucky. Doesn't strike terror into my heart, I don't know about you.

But he does make me super!sad. And so I share the pain with you.

'Til the end of the line.'
by Snow
500 words
no warnings/movieverse
for prompt #431 ~ Broken Promise at slashthedrabble
Takes place immediately following Captain America - Winter Soldier

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And now I want to write more Bucky ... *flails* ... tabaqui!!@! All your fault!!

and i have no bucky icons wth, man. wth.
Jason ~ Snow Sex


I want to thank everyone that replied to my last post! (i.e. the job dilemma issue)

I really did appreciate your thoughts and opinions, so very much. I made my decision this weekend and am staying with Job #1. Little bit less pay, but lots more benefits. not just the porn. :) really, it's not *all* about the porn.

Today was my Monday and I came home from work feeling *so* good. I like what I do, it's not hard, I don't sweat, my back doesn't hurt. Yes, there are members that call and are upset - but it is my job to make them happy! How could that go wrong? especially when we are given great leverage to do so! And my daughter is not unhappy that I'm there, which - although not a deal breaker - does make me smile. I like knowing that she's downstairs, I like knowing that she's so very admired by everyone around her and I like being referred to as 'Lori's mom'. All good, in my book.

After working so hard, for so long ... I'm not disappointed to come home and still feel good. Still feel like cooking dinner or playing with my dogs. I almost feel like after all this time, I kind of deserve a job like this ... I don't know if that's true or not, but I'm going with it.

So thank you! Thank you for listening to me and thank you for helping me with that decision. I did send Job #2 a nice, hopefully professional email thanking them for their offer and they emailed me back saying that they were disappointed with my decision, but to keep them in mind for any other (hopefully never) career changes. That was good, right?

Now that I've got my own cubicle ... I just need to decorate it.

Too soon to bring in the fandom pics?

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Jason ~ Snow Tattoo

drabble and stuff

So for the first time evah - i have participated in one of those anonymous fic memes. The spn_masquerade porn thing. Commenting anonymously is a pain in the ASS.

It was fun! i really like my fic, i'll post it after i get back from Vegas next weekend.

Yes! i'm going to Vegas! No, i'm not going to the SPN convention!

heh. My son (MY BABYOMG!!!) is eloping with his long time girlfriend and paid for my ticket so i can be there when they tie the knot. It's gonna be fast and furious, really. (for me) I'm flying in sat night - the wedding is sunday evening and i'm flying out at 1 am on monday morning.

i will be looking *everywhere* for anyone wearing any spn swag just to say HIHI! though. I'm just really so happy that my son invited me. My oldest got married (eloped) a year ago in Hawaii and i really can't even look at the pictures without crying. i would've given anything to be there with her. So this will be very, very nice.

also while Jeff is in Manhattan (kansas, obv) having his bachelor party tonight and Emily is in KC with her bffs for her bachelorette party, i am watching my grand!dog, Riley. A Rott/Husky mix that is twice a big as either of my dogs, but just as big a baby. So all is good. it makes me laugh when Emily drops Riley off and says 'Riley! Go say hi to your Grandma!!' *dies*

i also got asked (for the first time) the other day at the checkout of a store if i wanted to use my SENIOR DISCOUNT. fuck. i need to dye my hair, right? or just suck it up and accept that i am OLD. sheesh.

i would hope that everyone is reading along with tabaqui's psycho!Jason/Christian Kane drabbles/ficlets. Dude, no one writes a better scary man than Tabi. :) Of course, to combat that- i had to write a drabble that wasn't ... so scary. :)

On Fire
by Snow
Christian Kane/Jason Behr
200 words
for slashthedrabble challenge - Texts from Last Night
i was getting a blow-job tonight in the mens bathroom of a bar and the bouncer comes in and says "bro i don't mean to cock block but you cant do that here."

for tabaqui

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hope everyone is having a great sat night.